By: Lex Jacobson
By the time this is published on TNF, I will probably know whether I?m pregnant or not. The two-week wait (2WW) between insemination and pregnancy test day is tougher than I thought; I now understand why everyone has such a hard time with it.
I?ve over-analyzed every twinge, cramp, and food craving. I got a stomach bug this week, which I?m still trying to decide was a result of some bad food, or a pregnancy sign. I?ve gone through days where I know for sure that there is life inside of me, and other days where I?m so sure I?m not pregnant.
My partner, Devon, is so positive that I?m pregnant. I was right there with her the first week, and then doubt crept in during the second week, even though I swore at the beginning that I wouldn?t let it. I?m realizing how exhausting positivity is, and then how draining negativity is. Funny that.
What I do know is that whatever happens will be for a reason. I have to believe that. I can?t get wrapped up in the fact that if I?m not pregnant, my mat leave will not perfectly overlap my best friend?s mat leave. If I?m not pregnant, we won?t have a baby before Devon?s 40th, which we both want.
But if I am pregnant ? and I?m back on that wagon ? I will be absolutely thrilled and know that this is definitely our time. I don?t like that other people are waiting on the results, and I hope that nobody will be pushy to find out. I just want this to by my and Devon?s (and baby?s) moment. It?s such a personal life-altering moment though, and as a writer, I?m thrilled to share, and as a human, I?m scared to share. When it comes down to it, I?ll be excited to share the good news, or feel blessed that I have a community of support if this month is just not our month.
Please, 2WW?just hurry the hell up.
Source: http://thenextfamily.com/2011/09/awaiting-the-results-of-pregnancy/
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